I made a promise
Data 26/09/2023 13:29:33 | Tópico: Poemas
| I made a promise to myself that if I went down I would change.
I would change to something that almost everybody hates.
I would change to what I was hiding inside.
Something cold.
Something that would control every aspect of my life.
Something that would not allow me to feel.
This is not the normal wall a yust to raise.
The armor that I had.
I'm now realizing that that armor wasn't to let people in, but to not let it out.
My inner demon.
My real "id"
My wild side that would not care about anyone or anything other than itself.
I realized that I was in a fight with my "id" and my "ego", My monster and my mind.
But now it's time to let it free.
I'll become the real asshole from the beginning that people though I become only in the end.
I'll stop caring about what other will feel.
I'll stop caring if I'm gonna hurt them, they aren't me, I won't feel it so I will not be hurt.
I'll become the sociopath I always said I was but never showed.
I'll become the red flags they will always be afraid of for the rest of their life's.
I'll be that trap that will lure them in and when leaving they will be scared for life.
I'll stop being the jumping step for their greatest relationship to start being what will make them afraid of the next one.
Time to become the monster I always was. But was always tied down, locked so deep almost no one knew about it
Time to keep my promise.
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